I'm here for the first time. Your website is so serene and beautiful. I read you diary. Take all the time you need. I hope when you return you can find peace and joy in this hobby. To me, this is where personal websites are at their most meaningful; to peek into someone's story and learn there are people out there living very different lives and yet you still find something that connects you and even makes you feel deeply. I think that because you are capable of love, that one day you will find it. I hope you find it within yourself, because I think it's there. I'm sorry if that doesn't make sense. The fact that you're still able to love after it all tells me something very special and important is fully intact within you. I hope you continue to nurture and protect it and that there's room for it to grow. It does seem to me you need to leave your housing situation, which I know for a lot of people it's insanely difficult. I hope you can, because in my experience that's where life really started in earnest. It took years to get where I am now but only within the first month or so was I beginning to feel so much better and lighter. What's so frustrating is how hard it can be to think practically about what I want and how to get it, instead it's like I'm fighting myself for a better life on top of everything else. I really hope you're able to avoid this extra stress somehow. I know it's all words at the end of the day on my end but I hope they find you well. I'm awful at checking my email daily, but you're welcome to reach out. I don't have much else to offer, unfortunately.

I came here from the neocities "poetry" tag and wowww your writing is so beautiful! I especially loved "Birdkeeper" and "Roses" ~~ thank you for existing

Love the site design. Spent some time poking around and really like what you got going on here. Got to read so of the diary. I'm sorry that life went that way for you. There's nothing anyone can say to make it better or easier, but always rember that the things you have gone through make you the person you are today. That is always something to be proud of in my eyes. Keep your head up

read your dairy entry, im sorry you had to go through all that you have. no one deserves that. none of this is your fault and its okay to feel whatever you are feeling. your mother was a person even if they were terrible and you can resent all the terrible things shes done to you and you have every right to, but its also natural to care about the person that was suppose to care and nurture for you. its okay to love what little good she did and hope that she died happy. you can mourn the loss of ever having a better relationship with her. you can despite the fact youll never know why she treated you the way she did. its okay to feel all these things. it does suck that you have to go through all this for no fault of your own, and things would be so much easier if you could just forget, but unfortunately you can't. take as much time as you need and do whatever you need to do to keeping moving forward. scream, cry, write about it, you can even put your feelings aside until youre ready to handle them, but youll have to face them eventually. i wish the best for you

just absolutely beautiful,,,

website so pretty

Just wanted to say that your website is gorgeous and that i support you <3 Take as much time as you need and don’t rush yourself, you are more than you think :)

i like ur poetry =]

How did I get here?

the feels of the nostalgia hits hard

I love this... very punk... very soothing...

Your page was one my first dives into what is sometimes called the "indie web" and is for sure one of the reasons I want to make my own one day. So thank you for that. I woke up today completely snowed in, and I just saw your most recent post about your mother. It will sit with me for the rest of this frozen day. I hope that my condolences may be felt thousands of miles away as it is a really emotional thing that you will have to process for the rest of your life. I cannot say that I know exactly what it is like, but I know what its like to lose a parent you feel conflicted about. So, thank you for allowing yourself to be vulnerable and for expressing it with such eloquence. Your page is beautifully human, so just know that you are a beautiful human regardless of the ugly things you have went through. It inspires me, and hopefully many others, to remember to acknowledge our feelings even when they are deeply uncomfortable. With that, I bid you a third and final thank you.

Stumbled here just looking at random neocities sites. I am an old man now who used to make fun and silly sites on geocities, tripod, and the like. Maybe I should again do such things. But anyway... Your site is visually stunning and I can't stop looking at it. So I started reading. In the modern web, I never would have landed on your most recent diary post about your mom. I just wanted to say, that while your situation growing up sounds way more awful than anything I experienced, I know what it is like to have such conflicting feelings about a passed parent. I have no wise thing to say- just that your aren't alone out there. Thank you for sharing it. Anyway, consider yourself bookmarked. If I ever do get around to making a site again, you'll be linked. Stay strong stranger.

Your site is so cool! I want to check your writing out at some point, have a great day!

I read your poem Birdkeeper, and I liked it. Thank you for posting it here. The website theming is also great; the colors especially really add to the aesthetic of being here. I'm sorry about your mother.